I’m ready to be skinny again. I did inpatient about two years ago and have tried to keep recovering ever since. I hadn’t given in until last night when I couldn’t take it anymore. I can’t take being a pig anymore. It’s been so hard to go back to my old ways because I’m used to stuffing my face now. All the time. I’ve definitely gained weight. Probably about 10 pounds. Ugh. I look horrible naked. I don’t look too great with clothes on either. I don’t even know how I’m going to do this. I was supposed to fast today and ended up going on a small binge instead. It definitely could have been worse though. I could have gone on one of my major binges. Anyway, time to pull in the reigns and get my bathing suit body back!
Well Today is Thanksgiving…
It was nothing special. I know it’s like a sin to say that on Thanksgiving when I should be thankful for everything on this day, but that’s how it is. I didn’t eat too much food this year, so that’s good. I saw a cool post on myspace. Katrina Monico commented on how we Americans are gorging our faces with all this food while much less fortunate people in many other countries have nothing to eat. Josh Haynesworth suggested that she give her leftovers to some homeless people in Ives Park. I wish I would’ve read that earlier so I could have gone and done the same thing. But I’m in Sacramento, so it’s not exactly safe to go looking for some homeless guy right now. But I’ll definitely follow through tomorrow.